Keep your eyes on glory – your pain is doing something

Over the past 4-5 weeks we’ve talked about your heart and how important it is.  We’ve talked about the habitat of the heart and how it has been taken away from us – the woods have continued to narrow in with civilization all around it and your heart has nowhere to run.  We’ve talked about your heart being the wellspring of life and about The Zoe – the drawing upon the Life of God and just how important it was for your soul and heart to daily draw upon the Life of God.

And then we tackled “who told you that you were naked?” – those voices that come against us telling us we’re “not enough” or “less than”.  And then we visited shame and the power of shame over our lives – that self-loathing and self-hatred are two of the most common reasons we reject God i.e. “I am so ashamed of my past sin, there is no way God wants any part of me”.  Mercifully, we were reminded of Psalm 103 “For as far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.”  They’re gone.  He’s forgiven them and yet we continue to carry the shame and the enemy uses it to whisper “you’re not worthy”.  And last week, as an act of defiance to shame, we had a ceremony where you could stand and let go of your shame and nearly every man in the room stood.  They gave it up, let it go and freedom was experienced.  Just standing up had the power to give men breakthrough and we’ve encouraged you to share these things with your small groups because when you speak this stuff out, when you testify, the power only accelerates to defeat it.  By speaking it out, you are pulling it out of the dark places of your soul and bringing it into the light.  Evil thrives in darkness.  Evil cannot withstand the light.

We’ve done all of this … in just 4-5 weeks.  Whew!  That’s a ton.  It’s weighty.  There is much to digest.  So this week, we paused.  I want to encourage you to keep pushing into this.  Freedom is there for you if you will push into it and bring it into the light.  I am hearing amazing stories already of men shedding thirty years of shame.  To God be the glory.

We showed this talk from John Piper on 2 Corinthians 4:16-18.  In reality it is 4:1-18 but the meat is 16-18.  Chapter 4 starts with the word “therefore” and therefore is the point of this scripture.  Therefore we do not give up; even though our outer person is being destroyed, our inner person is being renewed day by day.  For our momentary, light affliction is preparing us an absolutely incomparable eternal weight of glory.  So we do not focus on what is seen, but on what is unseen; for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”

The whole talk is powerful but if you fast forward to the 45 minute mark and watch it to the end, you’ll get the point … powerfully.  The reason we showed this talk TODAY is that on the heels of all that we’ve covered – the heart, naked, shame, etc. – is so you can hear his powerful call to keep your eyes on eternity.  Your pain is preparing you (producing in you) an eternal weight of glory.  God is shaping you for the Kingdom.  If you focus on the pain of this life and the horrors of the news, you will lose heart.  If you keep your eyes focused on eternity, you won’t.  Frankly, this is the only way to be a husband.  To put her needs ahead of mine.  Christ died for me, I will die for her.

Paul suffered constant persecution for 20-30-40 years.  Beaten.  Shipwrecked.  Persecuted.  Beheaded.  And he called all that “this light, momentary affliction”.  Because…he was drawing upon the Life of God daily and keeping his eyes focused on eternity.

Your pain is equipping you, preparing you.  You cannot see it in the moment.  None of us can.  But God is working.  We closed with a quick summary of Clemson football coach, Dabo Swinney.  As a kid, his parents fought all the time.  His Dad’s business failed and he became an abusive, alcoholic.  Fights, throwing things at each other, screaming, Police coming to the house … it was more than any 11-year old kid could handle.  He’d crawl out his bedroom window at night and sit on his roof to cry wishing all this would end.  But God was shaping young Dabo.  God had a far larger purpose for Dabo as an adult and into his role in the Kingdom.  Now he can look a young man in the eye who just wants to quit because his life has been so tough, so unfair and he can say, “oh no, don’t tell me about unfair.  I’ve lived that.  You can overcome.”  He is in an incredible position to touch so many young people and change the course of their life.  He couldn’t see “Why” the pain came his way back then, but he can see it now.

As far as the east is from the west … Shame

Shame is one of the greatest obstacles we face in our quest to draw upon the Life of God and to enjoy authentic relationship with Christ.  We all carry shame and it is devastating because in carrying it, we are nurturing it.  We aren’t letting it go, aren’t giving it over to God and we are listening to voices that convince us we cannot be accepted by God because of this thing we have in our past that we carry around and maintain.  Remember the lyrics from that song, “I don’t have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the ways He loves us…”

Many of us formed our view of God as small children.  Those that came to know God as adults have a radically different view of God.  Neuroscientists confirm that If we can just alter our view of God – even by as little as 10% – it can transform our life.

“God just wants to punish me. He keeps track of all my mistakes.  He is spiteful” – these are usually shaped by authority figures in our life – my Dad, Catholic school teachers, Baptist preachers, teaching of “I’m just a sinner saved by grace”.

The people who taught you “God is judgmental” were judgmental themselves.  We all judge.  God wasn’t keeping track of your mistakes, they were.  God wasn’t judging you for everything you did wrong, they were.  God wasn’t watching everything you did just looking for how you screwed up, they were.  They were communicating to you who God was and we need to change that.

Psalm 103:8-12 “The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger and full of faithful love.  He will not always accuse us or be angry forever.  He has not dealt with us as our sins deserve or repaid us according to our offenses.  For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His faithful love toward those who fear Him.  As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.”

It doesn’t matter how far you’ve drifted from God, He still considers you His baby.  You can’t run away from God’s love.

“God is disappointed in me” might have come from an authority figure – but – it might have come from you.  We carry shame.  We maintain and nurture it.  What you feed grows, what you starve dies.  If you keep resurfacing the shame in your life – in effect nurturing it – it will continue to grow.  I’m harder on myself than anyone else.  We beat ourselves up.  Self-loathing and self-hatred are one of the most common reasons people reject the grace of God.

I’ve done stupid things in my life, things I’d give anything to erase from my past but … I’ve never done anything that was as damaging to my soul as the shame I’ve carried for it.

I have this crazy voice in my life that just keeps fighting for attention and space saying, “You are not enough.  Not enough for them, not enough for her, your life is not enough.”  This is the voice of shame. “You’re not enough because of your mistakes, because of who you were, because of what you did and where you’ve gone, you’re not enough because of what you don’t have or because of what they do have.”

Shame is a heavy burden I project on God because I am disappointed in me and God must be too.  We all carry something we wish we could erase.  How could God want me if I have this thing in my life?  I wish I could go back and get a do-over.  “God just give me a chance to go back in time and do that thing over again so I can avoid that huge mistake.”

And God would say, What mistake?  What are you talking about?  I took those mistakes and cast them as far as the east is from the west remembering them no more.  You can go back in time if you want but they aren’t there.  They’re gone.  You are free.  These aren’t part of your past and they aren’t a part of your future.” 

Jesus must be so confused because I keep bringing up things He forgot.  “Why did I die on that cross if you were going to keep dragging it around with you?”

It is time to live in the grace of God and who He says you are and not in the disappointment of who you think you could have been or what you could have done.  Jim Finley – “Every time we stumble and fall and every time we rise again, God can barely stand the bliss of it.”   Because our mistakes are the material of God’s grace.  It’s His favorite thing to do.  It’s His favorite thing when I say, “God, I’ve really screwed up” and He says, “Give it to me, this is my favorite thing”.  My darkness is the material for His grace and light to shine through.  If you are carrying shame and are hard on yourself, you’re going to be hard on others.  Shame and judgment will carry over to others vs. embracing grace.

It’s a radical shift to extend grace to others and suspend judgment.  Question – “Do I breathe judgment or grace on those closest in my life?”  Try suspending judgment for just one week that those around me will not know disappointment, shame or judgment and instead, they will know I love them and look at them the way God does.  I don’t need to withhold my love and hope they change.  I don’t need to ransom my approval and hope they act differently.  All I need to do is breathe grace on them.

I’m done with shame.  Done with my mistakes and my past and I will not be defined by it.  I will allow God to do what God came to do when Jesus said, “Give me all of it”.

Grace was this dangerous thing Jesus introduced to the world.  He doesn’t want you perfect.  Perfect was left on the cross.  He just wants you close and is calling out, pleading … “Stop using your mess-ups and mistakes as an excuse to stay alone and far away from me.  I just want you close”

So this is it men, it is time.  It is time to let it go.  If you have confessed it, repented of it and would give anything to erase it from your past, then it is time.  It is gone.  It is as far away from you as the east is from the west and God has no record of it — so — why do you still carry it?  Freedom, sweet freedom is on the other side of letting it go.

Shannon Etheridge’s story – she’d lived with the shame of her past sexual promiscuity and was beaten down into believing God could do nothing with her.  She felt the nudging to tell her story but feared, “God what will they think of me?” and God told her, “It doesn’t matter.  The only thing that matters is what they think of Me.  How will they know what my long arm of mercy and love can do in a person’s life if you won’t tell them about the depth of the pit from which I rescued you?”  And so, she told her story.  Repeatedly.  And it spread all over the country and became a ministry to women dealing with the sexual junk in their past and the condemnation and shame they feel and as she says, He took my misery and made it a ministry.”  Amen to that.

The same is offered to you.  Bring it out of the darkness where it is eating you alive.  Expose it to the Light.  Share it with a brother in our tribe you can trust or your small group of men.  Get it out of the dark and start taking the steps to let it go so you can step into freedom where God takes a mess and makes it a miracle!

And to celebrate the freedom of this release, the freedom of feeling like we have to be perfect to earn God’s favor, we ended today with a rocking celebration of the Cross…

Manschool Wednesday – we are meeting

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we will continue along the theme of “who told you…?” and enter into a discussion about shame and redemption as far as the east is from the west – inviting God into our past mistakes and wounds.  As a part of this, we’re also going to celebrate the Cross … the complete “it is finished” work of Christ.

it’s going to be really good.  see you then.



Erwin McManus – video of “who told you that you were naked?”

Some of you have asked if we can post the Erwin McManus “Who told you that you were naked…” video.  I haven’t been able to figure out how to do that as the only place I can find it is in iTunes.

I am attaching a link to the Mosaic Podcasts.  If you will install iTunes (if you don’t have it) and go to Mosaic’s podcasts, this talk is still on their list from March 9, 2014 Artisan Soul.

Voices – who are you listening to?

In a continuation of last week’s talk on “Who told you that you were naked?”, we pushed deeper into this territory.  This Spring, we have followed a progression …

  1. Sonship – that I am a full heir, that I am God’s son made in His image, divinely, uniquely created.
  2. Zoe – drawing upon the life of God – that we need to daily make it a priority to draw upon the life of God (the Zoe) like a branch needs the vine, like a tree needs the stream of living water, we too need to be fed by God…daily.
  3. Distractions – we talked about the things that distract us from the Life of God – busyness, technology, etc.
  4. Your Heart – we talked about the importance of your heart – that we need to guard our hearts as the wellspring of life.

Sonship…the Life of God…Your Heart – it is the path to life and it is opposed.

And last week, we introduced the opposition – Satan’s attempt to tear us down in whispering, “You are less.  You cannot.”  We talked about the power of these voices from our past and the agreements we’ve made with those.  Today, we pushed deeper into this.  The Ledger article about Ruby Thrush, the art teacher at Britt David.  She was shy, compliant child who was humiliated and shamed by a teacher for her inability to read in front of the class, “The only reason you are being passed on to the next grade is because no one wants to deal with you anymore”.  It took her out and she struggled to survive in its aftermath.  But she found her inner voice.  She got her legs back under her and now thrives as an art teacher inspiring her kids to dream big.  Her class motto is “If you make a mistake, make it great.”  From a shy, ridiculed little girl, she now teaches children to create a personal masterpiece that proclaims their importance, their identity and their talent – and she doesn’t care if they color outside the lines or “do it all wrong”.  There is no “all wrong” in her class – the kids are taught they are masterpieces themselves and she draws out of them their ability to create.  Beautiful.

Derrick shared a powerful testimony about the voices in his head that have tried to cast shame on him and Yancy shared his life and what God is showing him.  Neither of these men are “house-less” – no, indeed, both are quite at home right where they are.

Lastly, I shared a bit of podcast from Morgan Snyder at Ransomed Heart on finding out what God has to say about you.  Abraham, David and Joseph were all told by God what they would become.  They chose to believe.  That’s my question for you right now >> will you be one of those men who “choose to believe” what God says about you?  How do you do this?  Very few men go to God on a regular basis and say, “Jesus what do you think of me?”  Functionally, day to day, very few of us live like Jesus loves us.

Start doing this – go to God daily and ask, “God what do you think of me?  Jesus, show me how much you love me.”  Write down what you get.  It can come from a word, a new name, a picture, a sunset, a kind word from a friend, a worship song, Scripture you read … let God speak to you.  Whose voice are you listening too?  Let God speak.  Journal it.  Write it down.  Document it.  It will be powerful for you in the weeks to come.

If you’ve asked God who are you and if you believe it, there will come an immense freedom because you don’t have to impress people or be the center of attention.  You can simply be authentic and follow Jesus in whatever situation you are in.  Because you know.  You know who God says you are.  And when you know that, those other voices lose their significance over your life.  “The truth shall set you free”.   Here is a link to podcast.  It is 20 minutes long and I think it will help you a great deal tie all this together …

morning Lord…

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God showed up this morning at Panera Bread.  A few of us gathered to do life together and to push into each other’s lives and as we arrived, this greeted us.

These sunrises and sunsets speak to us.  They magnify the Creator.  They minimize the problems of our lives.  Life is short and in reality, the problems of this life are just specs compared to the VOICE of the Creator.

Whose voice are you listening to?  The voice of all these problems that hover over you that you struggle to manage and control … or … the VOICE of the ONE who created it all and is in total control?

Let God speak to you today and this weekend.  Find space to “be still and know I am God”.  Surrender those voices that you have allowed to take root in your soul.  Give that space back to God.  Listen to Him.


Be still.

And know.


Whose voice are you listening to?  Who tells you that you are “less”?  That you are “worthless”?  That you’ll never amount to anything.  Will always be a failure.  Will never be loved or you don’t matter?

It is amazing how much credibility we place on the words of others.  Others who are failed, broken, shameful people in their own right.  We’ve let those voices define us.

It is time to take that territory back.  It is time to surrender those voices to the Lord and let Him speak over you what He thinks about His marvelous creation.  You are, indeed, fearfully and wonderfully made.  He delights in you.  He dreams great dreams for you.  He installed unique gifts and talents and creativity and passions in you.

It is time to believe the Great Artist and let Him heal your wounded and damaged heart as He drenches your soul, as mercy and grace unfold.  Come Holy Spirit.  Come.

Who told you that you were naked?

From Erwin McManus Mosaic Church L.A.

The bible isn’t a manuscript of conformity – it is a manifesto of creativity.  God is an artist, not a warden. He is creating a masterpiece not a prison.  God imagined you so that you could imagine.  He created you so that you can create.  You were designed by God to be the most unique creature He ever created. Humans create futures – we imagine the invisible and translate it into reality.

The creative act is born out of your voice. You have to know your voice, find it and have a deep conviction of your inner voice – the one you were meant to have.  You see God gave you an inner voice – your voice – unique to you and from it, you create.

God spoke and the universe was created. Everything God creates, He speaks into existence, “Let us create man in our image.” And with man, it was personal and intimate. Nostril to nostril, mouth to mouth, God breathed life into us.  And we became his pinnacle work of art.  Humans literally were God’s voice wrapped up in skin.  We were what God imagined and dreamed up.   Jeremiah – “Before you were born, I knew you.” We existed in the imagination of God.

In the Garden of Eden, God created us and we could eat freely and every choice was a good choice, except one.  The serpent appears and says, “If you eat from this tree, you will be just like God.”  But Scripture says we were made in the image of God in his likeness.  So the serpent says the fruit will make us just like God but we had already been made in his image…like God.  Serpent twists and convinces Eve that God is holding out on her and that if she ate it, she’d be like God, convincing her she didn’t have what she truly longed for.  Naked, unashamed, free to roam and eat and play and love and discover and enjoy – and yet, Satan lured her saying “you don’t have what you truly long for”.

How many of us have fallen for that? “If only I had more money”. “If only I had ____”.  Mankind has been fighting this ever since the Garden.  A new voice entered upon the scene saying, “God doesn’t have your best interests at heart. He’s withholding from you.”

When God comes into the Garden, he doesn’t say, “Why did you do that?” He says, “Adam where are you?” And Adam replied, “I heard you in the Garden and I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid.” God’s response is fascinating – “Who told you that you were naked?”

As if God was saying, “Adam, up until this moment, everything in your world and reality was informed by my voice. But now you’ve allowed another voice in your soul to replace my voice.  Who told you that you were naked?  Have I ever told you that?”

From that moment on, we’ve all been listening to the wrong voices, allowing other voices to creep into our minds, our hearts and our souls to tell us that we’re not. That we’re less.  For some of you, the voice has become so powerful, you now think it is your voice.  Most of us have voices that made us feel ashamed, inadequate, that we’d never amount to anything, that we’d never have value, that we are “less” – we’ve believed the lies. And if God could have a simple conversation with you, he’d say, “Who told you that you were naked? Whose voice did you allow to thunder into your soul and re-form who you are?  Who silenced my voice inside you?”

All these other voices they speak into your soul and they damage who you are and they begin to silence the voice who made you. What is the story you are telling yourself about who you are? The voice that says “You will always be a failure” or “You don’t matter” or “You have no worth” or “No one would really love you if they knew you” or “You are such a disappointment”?  These aren’t from God. The voice of God will always call you to more, will always tell you that you have value and always tell you that you are significant and irreplaceable.

The story of Elijah is of interest here.  He stood down 700 men but when Jezebel – one woman – said she’d kill him, he ran for his life.  Isn’t the power of just one voice amazing?  Elijah runs out into the wilderness to hide and wait for his death.  And angel approaches him and tells him to get up that God wants to have a conversation with him.  God calls him to a cave where Elijah witnesses a great wind blow past, an earthquake and then a roaring fire and still, God was in none of these.  Then came a “still, small voice”“what are you doing here Elijah?” i.e. “You don’t need the big and the spectacular, what you need is My voice. A gentle whisper from my voice is all your soul needs to be fully alive, to find the strength and resolve to live the story you were born to live.”

A good artist knows the difference between his original creation and the imitation. He can tell.  The original work has conviction from the artist’s inner voice.  It isn’t an echo or imitation.  God cannot resolve Himself to accept that your life would end as an imitation or an echo.  He passionately and intently pursues you so that you will become an artist at work creating as well as His work of art.

God will teach you how to listen more carefully to His voice and how to silence the noise … Revelation 3:20 “Behold, I stand at the door and knock and if anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and fellowship with him and he with me.”

Who told me I was naked and should be ashamed? What voice told me I was worthless, shameful, guilty and invaluable?  The adulterous woman – Jesus never saw her nakedness, He asked her “who condemns you?” (who told you that you were naked?).  He saw her shame and knew if He could free her of the shame, then her nakedness would be irrelevant.  King David came back from war and danced naked before the Lord. What happens to the human spirit when we stop caring what other people think and say and how they feel about our love for God?

What would happen if stopped letting their voice define us and instead let God’s voice be the one that defines us?

Learn to dance naked in the rain because when the world tries to shame you and tell you that you are less and tries to speak into your soul a message that you don’t matter, it’s time to dance in the rain and listens to the voice that says, “You may be naked, but I’ve taken away your shame.”

Some of you have been haunted by voices for so, so long. They just keep pulling you under and taking you back – it’s time to surrender these and let Jesus silence those voices.  It’s time to let the one that created you and knows you, the artist who is the living God make you His work of art; to speak into your soul so that you can be both a work of art and an artist at work.  Jesus created you to create and imagined you to imagine to create the future. We’re designed by God to imagine what does not yet exist and to then find the courage, passion and faith to make it the future of the world.

Best of Manschool – Your heart

Pay Attention right here, right this moment, at this precise point along this journey, you need to guard your heart.  The enemy is going to come in here and try to stop this from progressing.  Feelings like “You know, all this stuff is nonsense” or “My heart is fine, I’m good, I don’t know what they are talking about” … all those sentiments of “Maybe this isn’t for me”pay attention.  If you’re getting this signal, we don’t believe that is from God.  The enemy does not want you pushing into what we discussed this morning.  This is the battle ground.  This is ground zero.  It’s the heart.  The battle has been, is now and will for the rest of your life against and for … your heart.

I have chosen the way of truth; I have set my heart on your laws.  I hold fast to your statutes, O LORD; do not let me be put to shame.  I run in the path of your commands, for you have set my heart free.   Psalm 119:30-32

Thirsty hearts are those whose longings have been wakened by the touch of God within them.”  AW Tozer

God first spoke to you in your heart.  The Voice came and called out to you.  He touched your heart and it stirred.  It awakened something in you.  And it was wild and passionate and exciting this awakening.  You were bold and fresh and empowered by the call of God.  The Voice still speaks to us.  For many, it has become harder to hear – blanketed over by duty, religion, the voices of others, past hurts, the busyness of this life and the mediocrity of social media.  But the Voice still speaks.  “Aren’t you thirsty?  Listen to your heart.  There is something missing.  There is something more…”  It doesn’t feel religious.  It doesn’t feel like a program.  It feels reckless, unsettling and perhaps a bit wild.  Perhaps we’ve heard it and chose to turn away.  But it continues to call out – “Listen to me – there is something missing in all this.  You long to be in a love affair, an adventure.  You were made for something more.  You know it.”

This is why we’re doing Manschool – it is a calling to the “more”.  There is more.  This is an effort to awaken men to an extraordinary life in Christ.  It’s a grand, shared adventure.  We’re doing this together.  We ARE tribe.  We are hearing testimonies like Brad Hicks’ last week.  There is such power in your testimony.  Such power when a man testifies – “I was once asleep but I’m now wide awake”.  There is so much power in seeing a man “bring the Kingdom” in his workplace and stepping forward to lead other men to the extraordinary life.  To God be all the glory for what we see happening in our midst.

Guys, you see it in your wives.  They too are drawn to something more.  They see Chip and Joanna Gaines on Fixer Upper – they see a couple in a shared adventure and it calls to them.  The Voice calls to her through romantic movies, novels and beach walks and sunsets.  It is there in all of us.  God truly is romancing us – He’s calling out to our heart, to that primal place where our relationship with Him first began.

You need your heart.  Life’s most important moments require us to have a present, awakened heart.  Proverbs says, “Guard closely your heart for from it flows the wellspring of life.”  The very waters of life come from your heart.  If your heart is absent, what do you have to bring to your wife?  If your heart is walled off, what do you have to give to your children?  If you have silenced your heart and your formula for life is work, drivenness, accomplishment, duty and accountability groups, where will you experience life?  Scripture has over 800 references to the heart.  It must be mighty important.  We first hear God in our heart.  Our hearts erupted into life upon salvation and yet, through attrition and busyness and religion, many of us no longer hear God and we no longer ask God.

We try to find an outlet for this inner calling – we try to lose ourselves in our work, or we get a hobby that oftentimes consumes us.  We have an affair or lead a fantasy life or turn to pornography.  We start to love the juicy intrigues and the secrets of gossip.  We make sure to keep enough distance between ourselves and others and even between ourselves and our own heart.  We wall ourselves off and become men that are islands to themselves.  Men doing life all by themselves.  We escape from reality via Netflix, Facebook or Instagram.  Our inner life has been divorced from our outer self – the one everyone else sees.  Many of us have lost heart.

Beneath all this we feel restless, weary and … vulnerable.

God wants to speak to your heart through that little voice much, much more than we think is possible.  Through prayers, scripture, scenery, music/worship and counsel from trusted allies, God speaks through your heart.  Where the heart is stirred, God is speaking. Your heart is the key to the Christian life but sadly most of us pay more attention to the oil level in our car than we do what goes on in our hearts.

The Habitat of your heart – Your heart, like any other creature, requires a certain habitat to survive.  A habitat that includes solitude, silence and a sacred place for meditation and reflection. We’ve touched on that – the sitting on your driveway at night watching the sunset.  Finding your secluded spot in the woods by a creek where you can be restored.  Turning off the TV and finding the Father in silence.  Little by little, our culture has invaded the habitat of your heart taking up more of more of the protective acreage around it – territory that is intended to be there to sustain and nourish your heart.

All of us have had that experience at one time or another where, through the pain of life, we’ve lost heart.  We’ve walked away from teachers or parents or a church or even sexual intimacy because of the pain striking a deep chord in us.  We trusted and that trust was violated.  And in that, we sensed that something important, perhaps the only thing important, had been explained away or tarnished or lost to us forever.  Do you know that feeling?  Do you know the feeling of “I will never get that trust back again?” — or – “I will never let myself be that vulnerable again”?  All of this comes upon us as a prolonged, sustained assault against your heart eating up the protective acreage of the habitat of your heart. 

Little boys running in the woods or adventuring down by the creek to fly fish – those boys were in touch with their hearts and what made them come alive.  However, for us – starting very early through the pain, hurts and disappointments – life has taught us to ignore and distrust the deepest yearnings of our heart.  Life, for the most part, teaches us to suppress our inner longings and to live only in the external world where efficiency and performance are everything.  We have learned from parents, older brothers and peers, at school, on sports teams, at work and even in the church that something else is wanted from us other than our heart, which is to say, that which is most deeply us.  To gain acceptance and approval, we comply.  If we are wanted, if we matter, we’ve been trained to believe by a broken world that all that we are worth is what we can offer functionally.  So we learn to offer only those parts of us that are approved – the compliant, well-behaved child.  The child that keeps his room clean and doesn’t get in trouble.  The good student.  The loyal employee that doesn’t question.  If we get approval from these things, they start to be all we offer.

We live out a very carefully crafted performance to gain or earn acceptance from those who represent life to us.  We divorce ourselves from our heart and start to lead a double life – suppressing the heart and its call and living out only what we believe will make us appealing to the world around us.  In our outer life, we live from ought“I ought to do this” rather than from desire“I want to do this” – and we manage our lives rather than enjoying the mystery of life.

Frederick Beuchner expresses it this way – “Our original shimmering self gets buried so deep we hardly live out of it at all … rather, we learn to live out of all the other selves which we are constantly putting on and taking off like coats and hats against the world’s weather.”

The inner life, the story of your heart, is the life of the deep places within us, our passions and dreams, our fears and our deepest wounds.  It is the unseen life, the mystery within – what Beuchner calls our “shimmering self”.  It cannot be managed like a corporation.  Your heart does not respond to principles and programs and efficiency.  It responds to passion.  Why else do movies like Braveheart, Gladiator, Robin Hood, The Sand Lot, A River Runs Through It and October Sky move us men so much?  I believe they tap into this passion.  They tap into the call to life, the call to live beyond self and the call to dream big – those things that God installed in us before the foundation of time.  The same things that move you in these movies are the things that stirred you as a little boy – of adventure, of good vs. evil, of banding together with others on the shared adventure for good and of rescuing the beauty.

Every man you know has a story buried deep beneath the silt of life.  To draw a man out, you must first dig for his story.  Trust me, it’s there.  He has dreams that have been dashed, hurts from his father, pain from failed love, heartache from losing trust or being abandoned.  It’s there.  By digging into his story, you’re excavating his heart, unearthing it, finding and freeing it.  This is why TRIBE is so important.  This is the noble quest we are all on here – it is to fight for other men’s hearts so that they may know freedom and allow their true heart to once again beat and breath and dream.  God continues to whisper to all of us wooing us with this sacred call.  Awake.  Come alive.  Dream.

Next week – “Who told you that you were naked?” – we introduce warfare